Dear fellow chicas,
My obsession has become my downfall. With all my blogging, planning and constant thoughts of weight loss, I bring about my own failure.
Why?
First, making my weight loss the most important thing in my life, making it into an obsession, has caused me stress. Stress makes people unstable. Instability causes loss of control.
Second, when I'm not trying to lose weight, when I can eat whatever and whenever I want, I don't think about food hardly ever. Most of the time I'm thinking about other things. While obsessing over my progress, I think about food all the time. It makes it that much harder to not eat.
I just need to relax. I just need to let this happen. I can't be obsessing over it (posting about it, collecting thinspo, making detailed plans, etc). It makes it impossible!
I'm gonna drink a bottle of V8 every day, and I'm gonna try to work out every day. But other than that, I'm just not gonna think about it, or worry about it, or obsess over it.
I'll lose weight, and by Spring I'll be twiggy at last. But as it happens, my mentality will be as if I'm not trying to lose weight at all.
I'm gonna delete my thinspo, quit posting in this blog, stop worshiping a scale and quit trying to motivate myself all the time. I have more important shit to do and think about. It doesn't require any thought to drink a bottle of juice every day and do squats whenever I have a few minutes.
If you've been struggling with weight loss and self-control, maybe you should think about NOT obsessing instead of gearing you mind towards obsessing even more as a soultion. Maybe you should get rid of all your thinspo crap and journals. Maybe you should just chill out and let it happen. It could be worth a try, but that's up to you.
Fairwell and best of luck,
Linds x
